Not being able to hold you in person and only being able to virtually kiss you makes this relationship feel so surreal. I see you everyday on Skype and I’m not complaining because I don’t know what I would do if webcam or phone calls didn’t exist. Its just being with you in person makes everything feel so much better. Fighting long distance and than making up doesn’t have the same satisfaction of being able to “kiss and make up.”
I guess seeing you over Skype everyday has made me realize we’ve really made it this far. We knew these Skype dates would come and now that they’re here I don’t look forward to the next 4 more years I’m here in school and you’re training to become a Navy Special Warfare Combatant Crewman (SWCC).
I love you babe and even though these next few years I’ll know I’ll be shedding pools of tears from missing you. I know in the end it’ll be worth it because I couldn’t ask for a better man to be loved and in love with <3 . 
Give me any reason to believe
‘Cause I swear I’m done here
‘Cause I’ve seen a bigger picture
And I’m looking for some answers
Tell me that it’s worth it
‘Cause I’m doing all I can to fight it
And I’ve never been this scared
And my moment’s finally here
I’m hopeless (But hoping)
My lungs won’t fail me now
‘Cause I’m still breathing
Low sugars are the worse..
yupp transforming my dock slowly one by one (:
(: So we have this binder where we both write to each other about past events, our feelings, and memories. He’s been reading me some of our past memories at night before we go to sleep.
Woke up to this message this morning <3
Well I’m thinking of the worst things that I could say to you
but a promise doesn’t mean a thing anymore
& this never will be right with me
…
& then we both go down together
we may stay there forever
I’ll just try to get up.
But I never told you everything
I’m losing hope and fading dreams
& every single memory along the way
Chuck: Describes the next sculpture assignment… “Please let me know that you have received and read these emails. The first student to email me a picture of a puppy wins a dollar.”
Me: Sends picture of puppy
Chuck: “Amanda and Ash each win a dollar for sending puppy pictures. Liz was
first, but send a picture of Tard the cat”
Haha…why is my sculpture teacher so random but so cool
kaylakamrada asked: Geez, all your shit almost made me cry. Haha. Its funny though, because the guy I'm crazy about also lives 800 miles away. Thanks for reminding me that what's ment to be will always find a way! :)
aww (: well this was unexpected but none the less brought a smile to my face haha. Yea it’s definitely tough being away from each other and we definitely have our off days but in the end everything was and still is worth it. Well thank you for coming across my page (: haha and yea I do believe certain things are just destined to happen. I hope you and this guy is or will share the same happiness that I share with my boyfriend!
I still think Alex from the band Jocelyn looks like an abercrombie model (:
As the days roll by being apart from you doesn’t get any easier. It’s only been getting harder. The days drag on as I can no longer feel your warm embrace, your irresistible lips on mine, your silent breaths on my back, and your eyes that pierce through mine as we lay.
This pass week we’ve both been sick. I guess it’s funny because back when we were both in New York if one of us got sick it meant we would both end up being sick. Even 800 miles away we managed to get sick together. You said it meant we were connected (:
We’re connected in so many ways. No one knows me better and I know you’re the one thing I truly know too. You are constant. You are loving, You are kind, truthful, honest, funny, caring, smart, ambitious, stubborn, cheesy, hairy (LOL), but most of all incomparable to anyone I know or will come to know.
AHHH my Sonic Bear is the cutest (: <3 Miss that little ball that constantly poops!
